Letting Go

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There are things we can change and things over which we have little power to alter or influence.

There are world events so huge, collective problems so complex, and personal concerns so vexing, that individual or unilateral action or effort would have very little impact.

To know the difference between what we can change or that over which we have little power requires, as the Serenity Prayer suggests, discernment and wisdom. Getting to that place where our wiser, deeper knowing is available involves moving the ego aside and doing some inner listening.

So, we might inquire of ourselves:

♦  If I move my egoistic wishes and wants aside, what can I reasonably do about this situation?

What’s best for me – my mental, physical and spiritual wellbeing?

How can the greater good be served?

If the result of that inquiry is greater confusion, it is likely a good time to do nothing. If we feel overwhelmed, it is probably a good time to look after ourselves and maybe to seek help and support from others.

And sometimes the best response to those overwhelming, perplexing and complex events or situations is to just let them go — or turn them over to something (an entity or an idea) that’s greater than we are.

We can’t change others. We can’t solve world problems single handedly. So, letting go and letting good is often the best solution along with a healthy bit of detachment from all those problems within and without.

As the Buddhist teacher, Ajahn Chah, said:

If you let go a little, you will have a little happiness.

If you let go a lot, you will have a lot of happiness.

If you let go completely, you will be completely happy.

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Where Energy Flows

There’s a Tai Chi martial art saying, “Chi follows intention”. Or chi, meaning energy, flows where the mind goes.

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Directing chi is important to mastery of any martial art. Because the mind and the body are inextricably linked, directing our chi is also essential to mastering our thoughts. Our health, both mental and physical, depend on it.

So, let’s say that if you place your attention largely on what’s wrong with your life – your fears, worries, regrets and doubts — you deplete the inner resources or energy required to create a more fulfilling present as well as working toward future goals.

You could even say that focusing on the negative simply produces more negativity.  Let’s take mood as a for instance. While it’s true that some of our biology does work against us in the negativity department – our brains evolved to have a negativity bias to help us survive on the African plains — the fact remains that the more negative our thinking, the more negativity we produce.

It becomes a cycle that’s difficult, but not impossible, to extract ourselves from. It does, however, take some effort and some strategies to buck the trend. What’s required is to deliberately redirect our focus toward the positive. Consider these:

Mindfulness Practices

Mindfulness practices, like meditation, breath work and yoga, help us to stay in the moment. Staying in the moment helps to produce inner calm, which is more conducive to creativity or intuitively-driven action.  Mindfulness practices get us out of circular thinking, which is self-defeating.

Planned Distractions

While it is important to acknowledge our feelings, we don’t need to get lost in them either. So, learning to turning our thoughts and feelings to the positive is helpful.  For instance, we might focus our thoughts on completing enjoyable or even necessary projects. Or engage in creative activities that transport us into thought-free space.

Interrogating the Truthfulness of Our Thoughts and Feelings

Not everything we think and feel is true. So, when negative thoughts and associated feelings do come up, we can interrogate the truthfulness of them. For example, after even a minor disappointment, we might engage in repetitive thinking about our uselessness. Thoughts of uselessness, constantly replayed, increase our stress and affect our mood. And worse, we begin to accept these thoughts as true. That’s when the rational mind can usefully be employed in interrogating the truth of these thoughts. We might ask: “What is the evidence for this belief?” And, “What else might be true?”.

Re-framing Negative to Positive

By seeking and then acknowledging the deeper truth about a thought or feeling that is disturbing our peace of mind, it will be easier to arrive at a balanced view of a situation or person. Or even of ourselves.  For example, in the case of a minor disappointment and subsequent self-judgment of uselessness, we could find a helpful re-frame: “This is only a minor setback. I am resourceful enough to find a way through this as I have done many other times.”. This is the deeper, wiser part of us helping us to make empowered meaning of the situation. Rinse and repeat as necessary.

So, in effect, we are disrupting the pattern of negative thought by turning our thoughts, and hence our chi, to that which benefits our lives.

“Nothing can harm you as much as your own thoughts unguarded.” Buddha

Resentment Rebound & Recovery

“Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die”, said St Augustine.

Interesting observation. But resenting the hell out of someone can be satisfying, even fun at times, don’t you think? After all, this person has offended you in some way (or you’ve decided that they have). Or they’ve achieved something that you envy or possess something that you desire.

So, of course, resenting others, at least in the short term, soothes your insecurities and makes you feel better about yourself. But, trust me, eventually carrying resentments in the long run will cause you more problems than it cures.

Here are some reasons why:

Your resentments are a heavy burden to carry. They consume a lot of energy and block you from focusing on that which will really benefit you, like what you can do to make your life more fulfilling.

Your resentments divert your attention away from the good people in your life who wish you well – those folks who really deserve your time and attention. These important relationships need nurturing to thrive.

Your resentments have no real effect on the object of your poisonous thoughts. Most likely those people go about their lives oblivious of the negative vibes that you direct against them.  It’s kind of like whistling in the wind.

Your resentments are a handy dodge. They provide an excuse for you to not get on with your life, your goals and your dreams.

Your resentments mask your fear of not enough-ness and/or a myriad of other not-good-enough fears. As Donald Hicks said, “At the heart of all anger, all grudges, and all resentment, you’ll always find a fear that hopes to stay anonymous.”

Your resentments negatively affect your health. They cause stress which affects your mental and physical well-being.

Your resentments can lead you into harm — for example, the harm inflicted by addictive behaviors. Those of us who are recovering addicts soon learn that holding resentments are the single worst thing that we can indulge if we wish to stay clean, sober and abstinent, because they provide an easy excuse to start using again, thus taking us back into substance-abuse hell.

So, let’s just say this about your resentments: they are a diversion from the main game which is improving your life and relationships.

If that’s the case, what do you do with your resentments?

Well, it’s time to do some gentle reflection to explore the purpose your resentments serve, because you can bet that they serve a purpose of some kind.

Here are some things to consider:

You could reflect upon what you’ve been avoiding – perhaps difficult feelings, conflicted relationships or life goals that you’ve given up on.  You could then begin to take small steps to resolve or address what you’ve been avoiding.

You could consider healthier ways to build your self-esteem and feel better about yourself.  For example, you could complete a difficult task or take one step, even a small one, toward achieving a goal. You could do a kind turn for someone or seek the appropriate professional help to begin the process of healing your sense of self-worth.

If you’re in recovery from addiction, you could work your program more diligently. You could find a sponsor to support your recovery. And you could reach out to help another addict.

You could explore and name your fears. By giving those anonymous fears a name, you diminish their power.  You could allow yourself to feel the fearful feelings without giving them the dodge. By allowing your feelings they will reduce in their intensity and fade away naturally. You could interrogate the reality of your fears (I’ll bet many are baseless or at least overblown). You could then take steps to address the real fears and discard the rest. And lastly, you could choose to replace fear with love by finding ways to be more forgiving, caring, kind and helpful and not just toward others, but also toward yourself.

Your heart will sing as a result.

Desperation Is Not Your Friend

On the journey to love, desperation makes a rotten traveling partner.


Because underneath that desperation is a ton of fear. And fear takes us to bad places.  For example, when fear is in the driver’s seat:

We’re more likely to pick a make-do lover. We “settle”. And when we settle, we sell ourselves short.

We’re more likely to choose and stay with an abusive partner.

We’re more likely to repel healthy partners. People with even a modicum of self-esteem can smell desperation (and its miserable companion, neediness) coming a mile away and they will give you the big swerve.


Well, I could go on, but you get the idea, yes?

So, the cogent question is what to do about it? The answer, as always, rests with you. In my view, it’s your mental machinery or mindset that requires attention.

While there is no magic fix, there are some things you can do to step out of desperation and fear and move into empowerment. Yes, empowerment. Because when you are in your power, you’ll be a heap more attractive to someone who’s worthy of you and you’ll be a heap more satisfied with the result.

So, here is a path to changing your mindset:

First. Recognize the fear that drives your quest for love when it’s operative. So, notice when you are in fear. Fear feels different in the body as opposed to e.g. feeling self-assured or feeling loved and protected. Notice the body-felt difference between those states. This is important because don’t want fear to be your driver / motivator in seeking love.

Second. Endeavor to understand the beliefs that underpin that fear. Yes, beliefs drive fear — false beliefs. Name them, then write them down. Such beliefs could include, “I’m unworthy to be loved as I am.”

Third. Interrogate the validity of the fear-based beliefs. How true are they, really? Remember, not everything you think and feel is true – especially when they are fearful thoughts and feelings. Therefore, dig below the false beliefs to find the deeper truth e.g. about your worthiness to be loved in equal measure.

Fourth. Replace the false beliefs with the truth about e.g. your worthiness. State this clearly and succinctly. Say it to yourself, then write it down and commit it to heart. Then, whenever a false belief rears its ugly head, you remind yourself of your deeper truth e.g. “I am worthy of reciprocated love with a partner who loves and values me.”

Fifth. Keep that deeper truth front and center in your heart and mind throughout your day. Be creative in doing so, e.g. design a morning and evening ritual to anchor yourself into your truth.

Sixth. Make a commitment to yourself, to one important other (e.g. a trusted friend) and to the Universe that you will stand for your truth and you will not go backward into fear. When a fearful thought arises, don’t engage it, just note it and then send it on its merry way as quickly as possible.


Me and My Shadow

“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” Carl Jung

The Shadow Self is the self that is hidden from view. That place in each of us that holds our secrets – those things of which we dare not speak to anyone, not even to ourselves.

You see, the Shadow Self is the metaphorical container of our repressed thoughts, shames, fears and desires. All those things that we learned so long ago were unacceptable and thus kept best kept hidden.

But, if you’re looking for a clue as to what might be held in your Shadow Self, then look at what you intensely dislike or react to in others — their behaviors, their attitudes, their characteristics, even their physical attributes. What happens is that we often project what is unacceptable in ourselves onto other people.  Interesting, yes?

Out of Sight Out of Mind?

Even though we repress our Shadow Self, it doesn’t go away. While the Shadow Self’s thoughts, feelings and desires are largely unconscious, they are still active, much like a roiling undercurrent that can surface when under stress.

As such the Shadow Self can cause us a lot of problems in our day-to-day life, playing havoc in our relationships and other aspects of our lives.

But, according to Dr. Stephen Diamond, the Shadow Self can also be a container of positive creative energy, because the Shadow does not just hold negative secret elements of ourselves, but many positive ones, perhaps in the form of desires of the heart, that we’ve been too afraid to give voice to or acknowledge.

Shining a Light into the Darkness

To confront a person with his shadow is to show him his own light” Carl Jung

So, how do we deal with our Shadow Self – turn a negative force into a positive one?

Firstly, we can make the unconscious conscious. Give those thoughts, emotions and desires permission to reveal themselves. Then acknowledge them and give them words. Psychotherapy, Jungian or other, can be very helpful in this regard.

Next, we can remove any negative labelling attached to such thoughts, propensities and feelings. We can see them as normal as opposed to evil, unacceptable or wrong.

We could even consider that our Shadow Self may hold the key to potentialities that we haven’t yet fully developed and that may be beneficial to us in some way.

And most importantly, we could accept that these thoughts, feelings and propensities aren’t going away. So, if repressing them doesn’t work – even making things worse — then we need to explore imaginative ways to deal with them. Re-purpose them, if you like.

As all of this requires deep work, the safe container provided by a helping professional is highly recommended.

Jacob Norby said, “Every pain, addiction, anguish, longing, depression, anger or fear is an orphaned part of us seeking joy, some disowned shadow wanting to return to the light and home of ourselves.” 

So, the question is this: What gems lurk in your Shadow?

Lost and Found

…Or the Day My Co-dependency Ended

The day that my co-dependency ended was the day that I decided that it was okay to be me.

It was the day that I decided that who I was was good enough. That I didn’t have to continue to push, strain or strive endlessly to be better. That I didn’t have to prove anything to anyone… even to myself. And that I didn’t need to be anything more than I was right in that moment.

It was the day I knew that I was not just okay — I was more than okay.

My co-dependency ended the day that I decided that I didn’t have to ask permission to breathe or justify my existence.  That I didn’t have to please others or try to be like them. That I didn’t have to live up to any tradition or follow in anyone’s footsteps.  That the only acceptance I needed or wanted was self-acceptance.

It was the day I decided that I could just be with nothing added.

My co-dependency ended the day I decided that my needs were at least as important as the needs of others. That I didn’t have to make things okay for other people or please them so that they wouldn’t dislike me or leave me.

It was then that I could see that I could give help, love and support to others and be open to receiving those things too. Giving was no longer a one-way street.

On that day, I realized that I might choose to change, but I would decide the if, how and when of it. My decision to change would not be driven by any outside force or influence, but only by listening to that small inner voice within to guide me. And, if I chose to change, it would not be to please others or to be seen in a better light. My decision to change would come from a desire to be even more gloriously human and to live in even closer alignment with my most deeply held values.

The day my co-dependency ended, I knew in that moment that this was true freedom. Freedom to be who I am and that the world would just have to like it or lump it. No grovelling, no explanations and no guilt trips required.

They say that co-dependency is the disease of the lost self. If that is the case, then finally, finally I found me.

And I have a strong suspicion that the world doesn’t mind at all.

Some Days Are Roses…

Some days are roses and other days are stinkweeds. I refer of course to the ups and downs of our day-to-day existences. Some people call them the vicissitudes of life.

While intellectually we might get that life, by its very nature, is not always smooth or happy, viscerally we don’t get it at all. We want roses all day, every day. We want an easy life, where everything goes our way. But, of course, that is impossible.

So, our usual reaction is fear and our main coping management strategy is to try to be in control.

Being in fear is a hard way to live. And, that we might have control over anything that is outside of us is an illusion.

Even though our efforts to resist and control the vagaries of our existences are futile, we keep applying this same useless strategy and, as a result, we are filled with even more fear.

But there is only one option for action and that is to choose how we respond to life’s vicissitudes. Yes, choose to respond. Not react. But we need some tools to do this.

The Tools of Wisdom, Acceptance and Gratitude

The first two tools of wisdom and acceptance go hand in hand. Wisdom assists our understanding of the nature of our human experience – that life by its very nature is a series of ups and downs.

And wisdom tells us that, rather than rail against the variance in our lived experience, acceptance of our condition is the only path to having any level of serenity in our lives. In other words, we know what life is and decide to accept it on its own terms.

So, with wisdom and acceptance, we can drop our pointless attempts to control the uncontrollable and we can dispense with useless expectations and demands of life, others and ourselves.

The gratitude tool helps us to notice all that is good in our lives. We begin to appreciate the bounty in everyday existence. We notice what we have, not just what we don’t have. We notice that we are already loved. We deepen our connection with others. We look to for ways to be of service and to share what is good in our lives.

And then the miracle happens… We feel a touch of contentment and we may even experience small moments of joy. Wisdom and acceptance tell us that these positive feelings will likely be fleeting and wisdom and acceptance tell us that they will also make a return.

While each and everyday may not be roses, our days don’t have to be stinkweeds either.

And we are grateful.

Crossing the Bridge

In times of dissatisfaction with our lives, we might ask for inspiration or guidance from within or without as to a direction or a step we might take to change things for the better.

Yet, often we know what to do without even asking. We know the answer in our bones, but we lack the will or the desire to take the necessary steps. And we wonder why that is.

Maybe it’s because we prefer the sameness or the familiarity of our current situation as dissatisfied as we might be with it, because making change isn’t comfortable. Or maybe it’s because we lack the confidence to try something different. Or maybe it’s because we demand certainty as to the outcome. Or… Well, there are probably a myriad of other reasons as to why we don’t take action on our own behalf.


However, my sense of it is that courage may be the crucial missing element. And then there is the companion of courage — faith. Faith that things will work out. Faith that there is something bigger than us that protects us and guides us. Faith that there is an inner wisdom in each of us that ever shines a light forward. We just need to listen and trust.


I’m reminded of the old saying, “I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.”

The bridge I refer to is the metaphorical bridge from here to there. From the life we’re living now to the one we want to live. From the place where we’re standing now to the place we wish to be standing in – that place where a goal, desire or dream is fulfilled.

When we come to the bridge, we rarely place a foot on it, because we lack the courage to trust ourselves. To trust our dreams. To trust our worthiness to live our dreams.


This is when a dose of blind faith might be in just what the doctor ordered, because sometimes we just need to take a punt, take a chance. Sometimes we just need to bet on ourselves. Sometimes we just need to put one foot in front of the other and move forward however slowly across the bridge that goes from here to there.

And we could look at it this way. Isn’t it better to have tried than to never have tried at all?

So, my question to you, to me and to all of us is this…

When you come to the Bridge of Opportunity, by happenstance or by design, will you have the courage to cross it?


Who Do You Trust?

We so often do not feel safe in this world. We perceive threats coming from every direction.

The news media, like our brains, has a negativity bias, expanding our perception of threats in a myriad of forms.  And even more devastatingly, we often don’t feel safe in our community or in our personal relationships.

And so, we are hyper-alert in the moment and anxious about the future, usually about things that may or may not happen or be true. Life can feel very scary.

But here’s a basic truth: fear and mistrust of others, the world and life itself are rooted in a lack of self-trust.

Here’s why.

♦♦When you don’t trust yourself, you are more likely to invest in people who are untrustworthy and situations that are problematic.

♦♦When you don’t trust yourself, you see threats around every corner. You’ve abrogated your ability to discern and distinguish what’s true from what’s not true.

♦♦When you don’t trust yourself, you have little belief in your own self-worth. Therefore, you will waver when danger signals do arise, because you ignore the warning of your small inner voice.

♦♦When you don’t trust yourself, you overlook your good qualities and you ignore or minimize the times you have acted wisely and made good decisions.

When you don’t trust yourself, you are more vulnerable to what others think, say or do, believing that their words, their actions toward you and their opinions about you, others and the world are valid, especially when they are hurtful or frightening.

♦♦When you don’t trust yourself, you have little to no faith in yourself to take protective action on your own behalf when it is required.

♦♦When you don’t trust yourself, you don’t trust much that is outside of you either, especially when circumstances are beyond your control. For example, you have little faith or trust that Life or Goodness can deliver what is in your and others’ highest good.

The good news, however, is that self-trust can be built. But it is a process. Here are some self-trust keys and suggestions to help you on your way.

Self-Forgiveness and self-trust go hand in hand. Forgive yourself for your past mistakes, the times when you’ve failed in some way. Begin to see them as learning experiences, because, like it or not, it is through making mistakes that we tend to learn.  So, close the door on the past, but stay open to the lesson.

Self-trust requires that you place your needs before those of others. Draw a line in the sand. Make a commitment to put yourself and your legitimate needs first as opposed to those of others. Your only obligation is to act in your own highest good. Know what that is and make a stand for it.

Self-trusting people have a balanced view of themselves, others and the world. Decide that you will see not just your errors, but the many ways your decisions and actions have been wise, kind and loving. Notice what is good in others and in the world. Take it in, appreciate it.

When you trust yourself, your intuition is your guide. Learn to recognize that quiet inner voice in your body. Pay attention to it. Respect it. This your wisdom, your place of truth. It will guide you to your True North. It will tell you when something (a situation, opportunity or a relationship) is okay or not okay for you.

A healthy sense of self-worth is essential to building self-trust. Accept, despite your conditioning and that loud critical voice in your head, that you are worthy of life’s bounty and goodness. Accept it on principle even if you don’t entirely believe it. With this principle in place, it will make it less likely that you will settle for less than you are worth.

Self-trusting people filter others’ words and behavior. Learn to filter what others say or do, whether it’s the media or people you know. In other words, don’t accept that every negative thing that someone else says about you, others or the world is true. Decide that you are the best arbiter of truth in your life and that you will make a stand for that.

When you trust yourself, you can better deal with disappointments and setbacks. Learn to put your disappointments and setbacks into perspective, because disappointments and setbacks will happen. Notice not just what you did wrong, but also what you did right. And try to see the larger picture. You’ll then more readily be able to harvest learning from the experience and try once again. Remember, it’s progress, not perfection.

Self-trusting people also trust Life to deliver what they need.  Sometimes you just need to ‘let go and let good’.  You can’t control, shape or determine every circumstance and outcome, so letting go is often the most loving and wise thing you can do for yourself and others. And sometimes, the most wonderful things happen when you do nothing.


Fire and Ice

“She’s fire and ice. You fear the cold and crave the burn” J.M. Storm

I’m talking, of course, about the Fire and Ice Lover.  You are captivated by their enthusiastic loving in one moment and devastated by their cold distance in the next. But still you want more.

I use the word “love” tentatively, because this isn’t love. It’s pain.

Nonetheless, I’m wagering that, regardless how painful the relationship is, you hang in there hoping things will change. True?

If so, consider this. The Fire and Ice Syndrome is just another way for this person to say, “I’m not available”.  And by not available, I mean that this person is not willing or able to truly love or commit to you, because their priorities lie elsewhere. Perhaps they are focused exclusively on their own needs, another relationship or their career. Or, perhaps, they are consumed by an addiction of one type or another. Or, maybe, they are just not that interested in you.

So, I’d invite you to…

Step out of denial

Dispense with the rose-colored glasses!  It’s time to face reality, as hard as that might be, and admit to yourself what is really going on – that this is pretty much a one-sided relationship.

And it’s time to stop justifying your lover’s behavior. Own your feelings of pain and hurt and recognize your need to be loved equally and fully with no confusion or mixed messages allowed.  You deserve better.

Acknowledge once and for all that you chose this relationship – it didn’t just happen to you. And, while you are there, consider that this relationship is probably part of a piece. It probably fits a pattern of relationship that you have engaged over a period of time, where you’ve invited others just like this person into your life. You’re attracted, against you’re best interests, to this Fire and Ice kind of loving.

Next, I’d invite you to…

Make a decision

Minimally, you could do either of two things:

Decide whether you want to accept things as they are, despite the hurt and discontent you feel, or if you want something better. If you’re going to stay in it, at least do it consciously and in full recognition of the consequences. Alternatively,

Decide that you wish to finish the pain and confusion. After all, if you want something to change, then you must change something.

If you want something to change, then…

Step into action.

Minimally, you could do either of two things:

Let him or her go or,

Engage in some serious face time with this person, the purpose being to once and for all find out if they are interested in a relationship with you or not. This requires that you take your courage into both hands and honestly and respectfully ask what this man or woman wants in a relationship. Do they want to pursue a relationship with you or not? And, critically, on what terms? Perhaps their terms are unacceptable to you. Well, that’s good to know, isn’t it?  Their response or non-response will be important to your decision-making about the on-going viability of the relationship.

Yes. It may be possible to get the relationship on an equal, reciprocal footing, where both of you are more available to each other and each of your legitimate needs can be met.  But that requires up-front honesty and heart-felt commitment on both your parts.  Unilateral commitment when it comes to relationships is meaningless.

So, the question for both of you is this: “Do you want to step up to the challenge of building a mutually satisfying relationship together?”

Now take a deep breath…